Dazzled Questions… Here me calling…

I couldnt understand how I feel now. I feel that Im floating in the place of nowhere. I dont know how to describe it, its all mixed. I feel sad, chaotic, bothered, scared, mad, emptiness and deep confusion. I am in much pain that I almost couldnt take it anymore. I tried to ignore it, refused, disregard and leave it away. But its in my head all over and I dont know what to do. I just want this to be end, to be end, to end, end… I cried like a helpless child. And I couldnt help myself crying if I could remember it. I just want peace. Yes, peace, peace in my head, my heart and my life. All I ever want is to talk, to talk the both us, to end what we have, to end everything and to forget and forgive. Why is hard for you to talk to me? why is hard for you to tell me the truth, why is hard for you to decide the best way instead of right way, why is hard for you to face me and see me now. Why the sudden change? Why leave me? Why did you lie? why used me? abused me? took me for granted? why its hard for you to apologize and say youre sorry for everything or even thank me for what Ive done? Why treat me this way?


I did like everything we had, bec. at that time I was so true to you, still you need to face me and talk to me for the last time. Why its hard for you to do that to me? why make it hard to let me understand, to let me understand, to clear up everything, rather than doing this way… To let me know whats in your mind, and in your hearts now. Just let me know anything and everything.

Why running away? Save me for the last time, Im begging and Im calling for you…