THE LOVE AND THE HATE

March 25, 2006

I was in a relationship to a man who have a girlfriend for almost three years.  It was all started to a bet, to a game that he will make me fall inlove with him for just three weeks, I just said, “try me? bec. you are not my type“.  So he made his move.  Within that weeks we became close together, we try to know each other, we became intimate and fell inlove.  We build memories, beautiful memories that I could never forget.  I was very happy and so did he,  we continued our relationship for I somehow; I felt love and I was loved.  I was inspired by then and I just couldnt just explain the feeling, the special feeling for him. Then he tried to stay away from me, and decide to end what we have without goodbyes or anything, he just left. For how many months later, we contacted each other, communicate and even talked until a time we decided to see each other. The same feeling we felt, a love that we and I couldnt actually explain. For all I know when Im with him I feel secure, peace and love. I believe for what he had said to me, almost everything. I feel that he was being true to me, espicially the feeling called LOVE.
 
 
 

Now this time this is worst, all I thought of him was not true. All the beautiful things he told me, all of them are all LIES… He just used me, took me for granted for want I feel and I really feel so abused and humiliated. When I tried to contact him its his recent gf will answered the phone. He didnt want to talk to me all of the sudden, he didnt want to face me. I mean why? I felt that I was just a thing that after he used and wanted, he throw me away. He just texted me this lines, “I want to be free, I dont love you, You are so stupid, I love her more than anything else”.  I was so shock, my world stop, as well as my breathing.  I just stood still, I couldnt moved and I couldnt breathe.  After all for what Ive done, then this is it? He just doesnt care at all, or pity on me… He just killing me into pieces… He wants me to die.  I dont want to hate him but he gave me reasons to hate him so much so much so much. The love that turns to hate, hope this could not happening to me…