THE LOVE AND THE HATE

March 25, 2006

I was in a relationship to a man who have a girlfriend for almost three years.  It was all started to a bet, to a game that he will make me fall inlove with him for just three weeks, I just said, “try me? bec. you are not my type“.  So he made his move.  Within that weeks we became close together, we try to know each other, we became intimate and fell inlove.  We build memories, beautiful memories that I could never forget.  I was very happy and so did he,  we continued our relationship for I somehow; I felt love and I was loved.  I was inspired by then and I just couldnt just explain the feeling, the special feeling for him. Then he tried to stay away from me, and decide to end what we have without goodbyes or anything, he just left. For how many months later, we contacted each other, communicate and even talked until a time we decided to see each other. The same feeling we felt, a love that we and I couldnt actually explain. For all I know when Im with him I feel secure, peace and love. I believe for what he had said to me, almost everything. I feel that he was being true to me, espicially the feeling called LOVE.
 
 
 

Now this time this is worst, all I thought of him was not true. All the beautiful things he told me, all of them are all LIES… He just used me, took me for granted for want I feel and I really feel so abused and humiliated. When I tried to contact him its his recent gf will answered the phone. He didnt want to talk to me all of the sudden, he didnt want to face me. I mean why? I felt that I was just a thing that after he used and wanted, he throw me away. He just texted me this lines, “I want to be free, I dont love you, You are so stupid, I love her more than anything else”.  I was so shock, my world stop, as well as my breathing.  I just stood still, I couldnt moved and I couldnt breathe.  After all for what Ive done, then this is it? He just doesnt care at all, or pity on me… He just killing me into pieces… He wants me to die.  I dont want to hate him but he gave me reasons to hate him so much so much so much. The love that turns to hate, hope this could not happening to me…

Its simply because I am a woman

March 4, 2006

Women are magical, mystical and spiritual creatures whose true value is not celebrated by our society, or even by women themselves.  We are each our own person.  We manifest our own destiny.

Women have always been the nurturing, giving, kind beings and that has been perceived as a weakness for millennia.  The coming of the New Millenium has awakened a power within women today.  We are recognizing what we are, the real essence of ourselves. We are speaking out and living our own lives.  Those lives may be within a family, a relationship, a job, a corporate environment or any other lifestyle imaginable.  One thing, however, is becoming very clear - women have strength, imaginations, and a spirituality that gives them the teeth and power to change their lives and to live as their own person. It is this mystical spirituality that gives women the ‘teeth’ to grab the quarry (whatever it may be) and protect the love and passion in their lives. It adds to the Whole Woman and becomes the part of her Essence which is missing in so many.  The true Essence of a Woman is Physical, Mental, Emotional, Sexual and Spiritual.   To be Healthy, Informed and Enlightened about each of these aspects is not easy.

 
The Role of the Woman

In a world where beauty is revered, the standard for a Godly woman is different. Proverbs 31:30 shows this: “ Charm is deceitful and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the LORD, she shall be praised.” So a truly beautiful woman is trustworthy, hard working, compassionate, educated and fears God. Being a woman in today’s society takes courage to put away your own pride to submit to your husband. A wife is very important to her husband, and is no less important than he is. (Proverbs 31:31) “Give her the fruit of her hands, and let her own works praise her in the gates.”

A true woman represents the true beauty of a person that shows elegance, sophistication, versatility, courage and love that she can show.